Jul. 4, 2021


At various times in life, everyone needs someone to talk with, someone who will listen and offer advice.  Sometimes, our friends or family are all the help we need…  But, other times, we need the help of a medical professional.

In the late sixties, toward the end of my marriage, I unloaded my fears, frustrations, and anger on a Psychiatrist. He was a kind and sincere gentleman who was respectful of my heart--someone who listened as I cried through every word.  My psychiatrist understood when to stop listening and start sharing the hard facts I so desperately needed to hear.

It took less than twelve visits to regain my confidence…to understand that my accomplishments far-outweighed my failures.  My psychiatrist guided me through a simple process that opened my eyes to basic facts:  My children and I deserved more from life than living with a bully, an abuser, and a heartless loser.

More than forty years later, when I tried to work through the shock and sadness of finding myself alone--without family-- I realized my sadness was beyond my control and called the Arkansas Psychiatric Center.

 I arrived at the center for my first appointmenti and noted too-many patients, including me, were being forced to stand in the hall.  The staff announced the doctors were running far-behind and—as a result-- the waiting room was full.  I waited almost two hours before the nurse called my name and ushered me into the doctor’s office.

The Center’s lead psychiatrist was short, completely bald and wore open-toed sandals with a suit and tie.  Without a hint of a smile, the Doctor directed me to a straight-back chair before he dropped—or should say flopped--noisily-- into an over-stuffed recliner across from me. “What medicines are you taking?” he asked and I proudly replied, “Nothing.”

The doctor picked up a prescription pad and, without looking in my direction, replied: “Before I will treat you, you must first start taking the three medications I’ll be prescribing for you.  I see you have Blue Cross/Blue Shield and Medicare so…your costs shouldn’t be over-whelming.  Also, I see that you’re still working and that will defray expenses, too. Now, are you allergic to any medicines?”

 Puzzled to hear that I must take prescription drugs, I said: “Doctor, I don’t need drugs or medicines. I’m here to discuss my depression, to find ways to cope with my devastating sorrow. Can’t you help by--” The Doctor interrupted, abruptly standing up. “I do not talk or listen to any of my patients until they are totally medicated. Ms. Miller, if you don’t agree with my terms then we have nothing to discuss.”   And, with that rude declaration, I left the doctor’s office.

One of the nurses behind the check-out desk, spotting my tears, said: “You should make an appointment with Dr. Johnson.  She's very kind and, because she’s a psychologist, her patients aren't required to take drugs.

Two days later, I returned to the Arkansas Psychiatric Clinic to see Dr. Johnson.   I was a little surprised that Dr. Johnson seemed much-older than me, a little fragile, and—she was wearing fluffy-white-rabbit house shoes.  If she noticed me staring at her feet, she never acknowledged it with an excuse or an explanation.

Dr. Johnson motioned me to a particular chair then sat down across from me. Her first words were: “Tell me why you’re here.”  I began talking... sharing my heartbreaking story, crying at times, feeling emotionally crushed until-- I happened to glance in the Doctor’s direction and realized her eyes were shut, her mouth was hanging open because…she was fast asleep!

When I spoke her name….she quickly opened her eyes, shut her mouth, and—clearly confused--- woke up.  The psychologist fought to make a few comments then looked at the clock and said: “Your time is up.  Stop at the receptionist desk on your way out and make an appointment for next week.”

The next week was exactly like the last week except this time-- Dr. Johnson was wearing fluffy bedroom “booties” in a Tiger design. I had barely begun describing the details of my sadness when Dr. Johnson’s snoring interrupted my train of thought.  Rather than wake her, I made the decision to leave….permanently.

On the way out, I stopped at the scheduling desk.  I cautioned them not to charge me for either appointment since Dr. Johnson slept through both of them.  I made sure they knew I would be sending a complaint letter to the National Psychiatrists Licensing Board. 

Soon after this experience, I began talking out-loud to the mirror; writing endless volumes about my unhappiness; taking longer walks with Cubby-Dog and….sharing my ongoing sadness to God.  That’s when I learned about Strength Training and started---my walk of faith.

When it’s apparent the so-called professionals lack respect for you and others; appear to have worse psychological problems than you-- as they demonstrate a lack of class and professionalism-- it’s time to start Strength Training.

 Fluffy-Bunnies and a Tiger-By-The-Tail House Shoes on an eighty year old--drug-addicted doctor ---in a Medical Office---REALLY?!?!?!

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17.10 | 01:42

I miss being Facebook friends with you! Hope you are well and happy.

Tammy Brookover Jay

15.10 | 01:28

Love all of this. I'm so lucky to be your neighbor,

30.08 | 16:26

Sally, my friend, I love your writings and sometimes they make me cry and then smile. I love you as if I had known you all my life. God Bless you each and every day in all you do.

29.08 | 19:19

Lol, I loved reading this story! As a female that dated a couple men with Harleys, I totally understand and met Harley Guy myself, many times over!
I hope you get your 3wheels someday soon!

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